Friday, 4 July 2008

Return Journey

I am making a return journey. A return back to the woman I used to be. I used to be confident, positive, happy, relaxed, neatly dressed with well manicured hands and make up. And slimmer. Much slimmer.



I've always liked to wear my clothes on the loose side so as the excess weight crept on I just filled out my clothes more. I hadn't noticed just how much until Christmas when I couldn't squeeze into my festive outfits. That made me pause for thought and weigh myself. What a shock. I started to re think and go back to healthier habits. I started to lose weight. But then life events got the better [or the worse] of me. Again to have to think about food and preparation became the last thing on my mind. I just piled on the pounds I'd managed to shed.

Then a few weeks ago I decided that although my husband has health issues I really did need to sort myself out. I've decided to work on one thing at a time. To change one habit at a time. to re-introduce myself to me. To find out who I am again rather than being 'just' a wife and carer.

I decided to let many of the household chores go. To save time for myself to enjoy life. First was to start to learn to play Bridge. Second was to grow my nails, to manicure my ragged cuticles and start to wear nail polish. Now I am working on my weight problem. However, this time I am not on a diet. I already eat a healthy diet. But I think that with the stress and depression I have been eating without thinking. I have been eating too large portions. I am trying to see whether Paul McKenna can do as he says. I have bought the book and studied the rules. I will try my best. I will let you know how it goes.


10 comments:

Flowerpot said...

Go for it and I hope you start feeling happier with yourself. You deserve to!

Winchester whisperer said...

www.bridgebaseonline.com is fun for practising bridge

Jay said...

YAY!! Go for it! I did, and I feel as if I'm really living at last. :)

Author said...

This is a great inspirational post. I took myself in hand several years ago because i had put on some weight and developed high blood pressure (linked with stress). I started to ear healthy (high fibre, low fat, smaller portions, 5 fruit/veg per day etc.) and my weight gradually adjusted itself without a hard diet. I also took more exercise by walking the beach and coastal paths (I could never go to a gym I'd be bored to death!)

I'm now back to size 10 and feel fit and healthy - so go for it girl!

Rinkly Rimes said...

I have just paid a visit to a friend who's a Carer so I could sympathise with your Blog. But I'm interested in your environs, as my father came from Devon. I, myself, have come to Australia via Africa. I now write a daily diary in verse (often rather silly but not always). Visit me at

http://rinklyrimes.blogspot.com/

Brenda Bryant

merry weather said...

Good Luck! Saying goodbye to the chores - hooray!

I think Paul McKenna's logic is sound. I'll look forward to hearing how it goes for you. I have one of his CDs and find it very useful, except that when it comes to the deep relaxation bit at the end one of the kids usually bursts in, bounces on my head and says what's this funny man talking about?!

Take care :)

Stinking Billy said...

penny. if you could just get back to that fair-headed young lady admiring her new car (you know the pic), how wonderful would that be? ;-)

lady thinker said...

Thank you all for calling in.I'm trying hard but it's a bit up and down ...I'm not 'allowed' to weigh myself for 15 days so wont know how it's going until the 16th ...

Hadriana's Treasures said...

Yes. Know how you feel. Hope it is going well for you! I need to lose weight (will not tell you how much) so I am trying to love those "Food Doctor" seeds with a vengeance!

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